so…im falling back into my eating disorder, and i was doing so good with restricting myself..until 2 days ago. with AP exams and all, i got super fucking stressed and im currently on day 3 of binging. i just ate so much i want to cry. my stomach hurts so bad. i cant stop myself.

im trying so hard not to cut..and for the first time in my life im seriously considering purging. ive never done it and i promised myself i never would…but it would get all of this food out of me…should i…or should i suffer with the weight gain i worked so hard for. i feel so FUCKING FAT. i look pregnant.